my brain is split. it is missing the desired connections necessary needed for stable personality. my intuition exists only to stalk and torment me. i cannot access my cleverness on its own. my memory fixates and has loading flaws. my mood feels like im just carrying around a computer with me with all the answers to the world that i have no password to. my subconscious is very mean to me and doesnt cooperate to provide a humanitarian or better living standard for me.